Now what?

Sometimes the time is not on my side,
sometimes it’s just the will of god,
Can I wait enough to see the change?
Can I still have that old and small chance?​

I haven’t see you in a really long while,
i am not even the half of what I was,
i’m very afraid of my new myself,
i don’t know where my mind was left.​

A huge cloud of doubts has invaded me,
and more sounds of warnings are in my head.
Why I can’t be just free?
Why I can’t ever see?​

I don’t know why even make this questions,
i’m alone in the middle of the nowhere.
I just want to have you with me in here…
I… I just wanted you to protect me from my own sins.​

I’ve been screaming until I can’t feel my own mouth,
[SIZE=3]but nothing seems to be working so I better just shut.[/SIZE]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]Thinking if there is really something in this world,[/SIZE][/FONT]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]but I can’t hear a single whisper or even just a word.[/SIZE][/FONT][/COLOR][FONT=Calibri][/font]​

[LEFT][COLOR=#000000][FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]Still in here, still alive,[/SIZE][/FONT][/COLOR][FONT=Calibri]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]God is not here, will I survive?[/SIZE][/FONT][/COLOR][FONT=Calibri]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]This can’t be worse, it really can’t.[/SIZE][/FONT][/COLOR][FONT=Calibri]
[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]Now what?[/SIZE][/FONT][/COLOR][FONT=Calibri][/font][/font][/font][/font][/LEFT][FONT=Calibri][FONT=Calibri][FONT=Calibri][FONT=Calibri][/font][/font][/font][/font]